It's been awhile....

So its been awhile since I've let my fingers wander aimlessly across the keyboard. I've done a bit of thinking of life, love and the purpose of everything that seems mundane to others. I realize that life, no matter how meaningless and pointless it may seem at times, is actually worth every minute we spend stepping over the obstacles that our thrown in our paths. If we take the time to step over the obstacle, we will see that there is something better on the other side. Granted we may come upon another obstacle as we go on, but if we persevere we will become stronger with each situation we must face. As unfair as life may seem at times, if you place your heart in the right place, you may realize that unfairness is only the first step in learning what fair really is. It has taken me awhile to come to this realization. At first I believed that the obstacles were put there to stop me and give me no opportunities for forward movement. To have the outlook on life that I now have is a strange feeling for me, and granted, I may not have gotten here the way that everyone once wanted me to, but the path that I chose to get here has enlightened me. I have learned that I am capable of handling more difficulties that I am faced with better than I had ever thought possible. In my choices that have gotten me to this point in my life, I have realized that some things are required in order to help me through certain issues, but many of the issues that I once thought I couldn't handle without assistance, I am now capable of handling pretty much on my own. It is an amazing feeling to walk through life knowing that I can handle some difficulties on my own.
Love, a situation we all desire to experience. Can someone please provide me a definition of love? I mean I think I know what it is supposed to feel like, but every time I think I experience it, it turns out to be a facade. None the less,  I am open for the experience, and by this I mean the real experience. My heart aches to be wanted and loved. True love is desired by this lonely heart. Can I find this experience that so many speak so highly about? Or is this another experience I will not find? Something I have to experience vicariously through others? Maybe, perhaps, this experience is right in front of me....how great a thought that is.
Perchance I have rambled on too much, but it has eased my mind a bit. Love and life, everything mundane tumbling around in my head as a band with no conductor. Provide me with your thoughts upon my ambient ramblings...until later my loves.....